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Yesterday, I was stopped by a girl - who I assumed was part of the feminist group on campus - and was asked how I felt about women’s rights.

I said I didn’t know much about it, which at the time was just an answer so I could continue walking, but I guess it’s true. She just gave me a flyer where a meeting was going to be held, but I guess I don’t really keep up with politics or any kind of activist movement (?) that much. The most I’ve ever been active was during the last election, LOL… And I gave up half-way because my candidate didn’t even make it to November.

Anyway, the point of this post is that I guess I never really considered myself a feminist (or not a feminist) because I think people see me as an Asian before a woman, so the race card plays a bigger significance to me than the gender card. And then after that, it gets broken down to your ethnicity, and drama ensues!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s a bit hard to believe that it has been only four months since I’ve been in Arkansas!

Even though I hate this city and had quite a few rough patches, I’m very thankful for this school. I’m exiting this semester with excellent grades and good impressions (I think?) :) I feel that I’ve changed greatly in just a few months. I feel happy just from being successful and have a very positive outlook for the next few years!

Here’s to my future. Can’t wait to see what else is in store for me!

For those who don’t know me that well, I’ll start by saying that I’m 21 years old, and I’m a college student. If things had been going according to plan, right now I would have just finished my second year of pharmacy school or I would have just graduated from college with a bachelor’s. But the past four years or so have been an incredibly huge rough patch, and a lot of things have happened.

About a month ago, I made a very last minute decision to apply to a school outside the state I’m residing, and I just found out I got accepted a few minutes ago :) As a whole, it’s not a big deal because I’m just another person on this planet who just found out she got accepted into the school of her choice, but this is a huge deal for me, mostly because it’s very last minute and everything is happening all at once, and I’m moving somewhere where I know absolutely no one.

To top it off, I have a very weird ego/pride… I’m going to be a 21-year-old freshman living in the dorms with a bunch of 18-year-olds. I’m going to feel incredibly embarrassed :( I know age is not a big deal, but I know people are going to ask questions. A lot of questions. But this is my chance to get my life back on track, to meet new, amazing people, and to finally make friends that will last for a lifetime :)

There are a lot of things that are not finalized, so there’s also the slim chance that things won’t work out. But I’m trying to look on the bright side of things! :’D If you don’t see me online, it just means I’m taking care of a lot of things pertaining to this… orz ;;;;;

I’m probably thinking too far, but I’m really hoping that my future roommate and I will have some related interests… Asking for someone who likes Japanese music/dramas/games/everything is a bit much, so I hope she and I will have some kind of common ground because I’m an awkward being and need something to start a conversation with! orz